The Unofficial Harry Potter Cookbook and Cooking through My Grief

Taking it one recipe at a time. 2013 will be mainly focused on "The Unofficial Harry Potter Cookbook," by Dinah Bucholz, and how doing what I love, cooking, being with my family and reading Harry Potter will help me process my grief associated with loosing my 3 week old daughter, Ruby, on November 18th, 2011.
Join me for a "culinary magical masterpiece" throughout 2013!

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Crispy Fried Bacon

As I am sure is obvious, I am not quite back into the cooking mood yet and this week was able to accomplish one cooking adventure from Harry Potter. Yes, I cooked bacon. (I know, its a bit pathetic of me, but its now Saturday and I'm just in the chillin mood not in the cook up a storm kind of mood.) Bacon shows up on Harry's breakfast plate the morning before taking on the dragons in the Triwizard tournament. (Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, C. 20)
I cooked up this bacon to go with some homemade french toast I was craving. I decided to cook the bacon on top of the stove in a pan instead of in the microwave or oven, regretted that decision instantly! Everything including me was covered with grease splatter and my house filled with a thick bacon smoke. In a normal situation this would have been fine, because I truly do enjoy the smell of cooked bacon, but the french toast was not cooking up well. The bread kept ripping and tearing and finally I just threw my hands up and told Mr. B that we were going to Fazoli's for dinner. The bacon ended up being our appetizer:) Bacon of course is given a score of 5, you can't go wrong with bacon:)
English History: "The British were much luckier than their contemporaries in other countries. In bad times, they had more food to eat than did the rest of Europe. Bacon was available even when a depression hit the country some 700 years ago. By the 1800's the lower classes were eating bacon almost every day for breakfast." ("The unofficial harry Potter Cookbook," Bucholz, pg. 112)
Greif and Healing: This week I have found that I don't think about Ruby every second of everyday like before. I can walk through the day and get things accomplished and then I lay down at night and my mind starts to replay Ruby. I become consumed with thoughts of her and toss and turn until I can finally fall into a deep sleep. The hard thing about these thoughts is that the parts of Ruby's life I am remembering are the parts when she is at her sickest dieing. I also think about everything I wish I could go back and change the moments I shared with her to be perfect ones. I have to remind myself that it is in the past, it happened and Ruby still loves me. I also have to remind myself that I had just given birth and was truly exhausted and living off of pure adrenaline most of her life. I'm sure this phase of memories will pass, but its been a bit hard to want to go to bed this week.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Harry Potter Meal Catchup:)

Scotch Collops
(Pan-Seared Steak with Onions and Mushrooms)
Pg. 141
Score: 3

Cinnamon Pull-Apart Breakfast Rolls
pg. 114
Score: 3

Potatoes Baked in Their Jackets
pg. 126
I took out the insides of the potatoes and mixed it with some shredded chicken, mayo, cream of chicken soup and Garlic Mrs. Dash. Very Yummy and easy meal!

Paddington Burgers
Pg. 29
Score: 4
Homemade Burgers are always very yummy!

Best for last: Lemon Meringue Pie
Pg. 15
Score: 5

Vacation has thrown me off of my schedule. Here are the pictures and the names of the meals I have made the week we left for vacation and this last week. Next week I will hopefully be back to my regular routine. I know you all are dieing to read my full food/healing reviews:)

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Pictures Say a Thousand Words!!!

Buckle up! Its gonna be a long trip!

Whats vacation without a bit of McDonalds??
Brian with Cousin Katie

Weeeeee! The coolest park! We needed to stretch some:)

On the road again


Us with MaryKay's family in Flagler Beach, FL. One more day til the Cruise!

Snow white is ready to Party! Even if she's not on the ship!

I'm very proud of how lightly I packed:)

Woot Woot! Disney Dream Cruise here we come!!!

Lets just say Disney took our breath away! AMAZING!

Off to the deep blue sea aka ocean.
As we set sail the Boats horn would toot out various disney theme songs, while the other cruise ships around us would just toot their horns. It was soooooo magical. We knew we were on the right ship! :) aghhhh, so exciting!

Yeah, sleeping while sailing to the Bahama's. Who does that! Wake up sleepy heads!

Princesses EVERYWHERE! Dream come true (even for my inner child!) They also had all of the other disney characters. Pretty much we felt like we were living in the Disney Castle!
All of the workers would call Rose a "Princess!" I think we heard that 100 times a day! It was so cute. I was waiting for them to start calling me a princess too;)


Rose playing in Andy's Room, from Toy Story. Rose LOVED the slinky dogs! She also loved the bottomless princess dress up in Tinkerbells room!

Yes, we checked Rosie into the child center on the boat and Brian and I went on a date, in a foreign land and had a blast!

Once a boy, always a boy:)

Family Pic!!! We're in the Bahama's with Mickey and Minnie!!!

Yes, they even let you eat Mickey while on the boat!

They had a New Years Eve party one night while we were on the boat. We of course had to go to it since this trip signified to us the beginning of a New Year and hopefully New healing! It was fabulous! We danced for an hour and they even gave Rose and I silver New Years Eve Tiara's and Brian a silver top hat!!! It was PERFECT!!!

LOVED our stateroom with a Verandah! LOVED our cleaning lady more! She straightened our room up 3 times a day and we ALWAYS had chocolates waiting on our bed for us when we came into our room at night. Sooooooo wish I could have brought her home with me!!!

"A dream is a wish your heart makes, when your fast asleep..."

The Disney Dream is HUGE!!!

You can't see it but a statue of Mickey is hanging off the front of the boat.

You know your in Paradise when the water is blue!
We are on Disney's private beach Castaway Cay for the next few pictures. This was our most FAVORITE stop!

Yes, we sponsored a crab for the crab race. His name: AWESOME POSSUM, Owned by: FLIPPER=Crab #4, Awesome Possum kicked the other crabs trash!!! We Won! That was the most excited I have been in a long time! Seriously, you need to experience a crab race! :)

Yes, we went biking on the Island. It was our favorite excursion!!!! Sooooo beautiful and relaxing. Even Rose loved it!

We didn't a picture of it, but they have 2 water slides on the Island that shoot you out into the ocean! It was sooooo fun! Especially with all the fish swimming around your feet!

Gosnell 2012

Pirate Night!!! Argh! They left us all matching bandanna's on our bed...and yes, they still left us chocolate that night, FABULOUS!

The sleeping Pirate!

My MOST favorite towel animal! Its wearing my Sunglasses!!! Heehee.

...Someone was a bit of a grouchy pirate that night bet you can't guess which one...They had a pirate show they put on and yes, afterwords they had a firework show in the middle of the ocean on a beautiful starry night!!! LOVED IT!

Good Morning Princess:)

Daddy is Prince Charming for a few more years at least! :)

More Chocolate!!!

Family Pic on the Grand Staircase!

We met up with some new friends of ours on our way home from FL. They live in Savannah, GA and they took us to Tybee Island for lunch. Love light houses, and LOVE the Behms!!!

Farewell Disney! Thank you for the most fabulous, wonderful, healing trip!
We truly felt Ruby was with us. We thought we could go on vacation and just forget about everything for a week, which we forgot about everything except for one thing, our little Ruby. She was in the eye's of the multiple children we ran into on the ship who had disabilities. We would talk to those kids and hold there hands and our hearts would melt and our eye's would cry and we saw Ruby! We saw Ruby in the Firework shows and realized that no matter what her light will always shine in our lives. And of course in the Disney shows and Disney's motto's of "Believe," "And Dreams Come True." I realized that even though my dreams did not come true, and I Believed they would 4 short months ago, I have new dreams, and I have new things that I Believe in. I guess my Disney trip taught me to be flexible, but most of all it does not matter how far away from home we go, Ruby will ALWAYS be in our hearts and on our minds. Thank Heaven for our Eternal family!!!
I LOVE YOU RUBY! Thank your for sponsoring our most Heavenly Vacation!
p.s. Thank you for your sweet gift! ;)